I haven’t written in here much lately. At the end of this month I am moving back to Arkansas.
Edward loves it here in NC, loves his job, and loves his friends. He doesn’t want to go back.
“It’s perfect here.” I told him to stop and think about it for a second. It’s perfect for him, but not for me.
I have to do everything on my own, or wait until Edward gets home from work to have help. I can not communicate with the general public because they don’t sign and I can’t have them write or read their lips. I do not have it as easy as most deaf people who can just carry around a little notebook and have a person write when they do not understand.
Also Asheville is in the mountains. hills, slopes, all sorts of balance issues for me here. I can not even walk out of my own house without a fear of falling. Soon after you walk out of the building, there is a sloping sidewalk that goes up and then get to the top and it slants down. With no vision, my balance is worse than most people’s with just a hearing loss. I also have a weak right leg. Combine all that together and I fall very easily.
There is no support for the deaf-blind person here. I can not get any sort of help or assistance. I just have to summerize what I want at the store or doctor’s office and just hope they do what I told them.
I am going back to Arkansas where there is flat land! Also, Edward will be with me all day again and can help me communicate with the public and be there when I fall. It will be better than feeling comppletely lost in the world.
I do feel bad for him having to quit his job, but family comes first. At least that is the way it works in my book, and him coming back would be the right thing to do for his family. In life you do things for your spouse even if you don’t want to. This time it’s his turn to do sometihng for me. Who knows when I’ll have to sacrifise something ffor him. I just know that in order for my life to be easier and better for now, I have to go back home.
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