It’s been a while since I have wrritten. I felt completely terible for the past several days.
I finally got around to going to the urgent care because I didn’t know how much more I could deal with. It’s hard being sick and taking care of a baby. I never could go during the day because I couldn’t find a baby sitter, and I didn’t feel like lugginig around a car seat after taking a cab. I could not get a ride from anyone either.
One day when Edward got hom from work we all went. I needed him to go and be my ears, and he also had to take care of the baby since we still could not find anyone to watch Isaiah.
It turns out that the reason I was feeling so terrible is because I have strep throat, and on top of that the flu. My throat did feel like I had swallowed a piece of glass, but I’ve never had strep throat so didn’t even think about that. My muscles ached so bad and I didn’t want to move.
The flu is over now, but the strep throat continues. I have another week of antibiotics to take for that.
My ears heart constantly. There is no ear infection, it just must be part of the strep throat. I thought my hearing was getting worse because of an infection, but I’ve pretty much given up on that theory.
I can hear people talking, but I don’t have a clue what is being said. Even my husband now had to speak directly into my ear. Any farther than that and I can’t understand him. Even when he is talking into my ear I have trouble understanding him. He has to slow his speech down, which he doesn’t always remember to do. Even if he does, sometimes I still don’t understand what he is saying.
Losing my hearing is killing me. Is the re hope? Will I ever be able to get the ABI? When and if I ever do, I’ll still have the 4-10 weeks of total silence after the surgery waiting for the ABI to be turned on, and prayiing that it will work.
Losing a sense is never a fun thing. I’ve already done it, and it looks like I’m about to lose another sense completely. All I will have left is taste, touch, and smell. It is a depressing fact of life for me, and I just have to keep trying to make it the best I can.
I need to finish my book so I can raise more funds. At least, I’m hoping it will make htfundraising easier. This is my only hope at having a bit of hearing and I can’t give up.
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